This week we found out that we’re in for a special treat in June: another little girl will join our family! G and I didn’t have a gender preference for “Number Two,” but we were totally convinced that we were having a boy. When we found out that N would have a little sister instead, I think I heaved an audible sigh of relief — simply because we already know what it’s like having a girl. Even though I’m not terribly confident I know what to do with two girls, I’m sure I’d have no idea what to do with a boy.
I know that many people wait to find out their baby’s sex and let it be a surprise, but I’m one of those slightly antsy people (as is G) who wants to have as much information up front as possible. I felt with N — and now with “Little Sis” — that it helps me bond even more with the little being inside my belly. And of course, now we know that we don’t have to buy all new clothes and nursery items — bonus!!
We got some amazing ultrasound pictures. We didn’t arrange for this, but we lucked out and got several incredible 3D images of our little girl’s face. It feels eerily sci-fi to see images of a little 21-week-old baby in utero — specifically, in MY utero!
I’m feeling pretty good, though more tired than I remember feeling the first time around. When I was pregnant with N, I had a lot of energy during my second trimester, but this time any energy surplus is drained by our 3-year-old whirlwind (plus work, plus maintaining some kind of physical order in our house).
But both times I’ve had similar hormone-induced ups and downs. When I was pregnant with N, I would burst into tears with fear that I wasn’t going to be a good mom. Now I burst into tears thinking I’m barely hanging on with one kiddo — how in the world am I going to handle two??
N is very excited by the thought of being a big sister. She talks constantly about the things she’s going to teach the baby and has impressed us with her natural maternal instinct, singing made-up songs to the baby like, “Don’t wor-ry, ba-aby, Mama’s got you, Dada’s got you, Natalie’s got you.” But we think N has her share of anxiety as well — she may not be able to verbalize it, but we see little clues (e.g., bad dreams, acting out, etc).
As for the only dude in the family, G is taking the news extremely well, even through the emotional outbursts from both me and N. He’s excited to have a house full of girls, and knowing him, I think he’ll continue to be excited (though I’ve already heard him groan once that it’s one more wedding to pay for!).
All in all, it’s a nice feeling to know that every day our family is one step closer to being complete (unless we decide to tempt the fates and see if we can handle a boy)!